somethings wrong with me... its like every friday i cant wait for the weekend to come.. and when its friday night.. i'm so happy coz it means two days of no work for me ... but when saturday comes... i feel so ... depressed?...stressed?..notreally stressed..just bored and sad ... coz so far i havent had any plans for my weekends and most of hte time i just laze around at home ..blog..watch tv... and mope... why?...i have no idea... past 2 weeks..i've been moping and stressing about work..but now ...i dont feel so stressed about work already...right now...all thats been on my mind ..is the stupid france trip... i feel so stupid... why do i keep thinking about it..its only making me upset... its making my eyes tear up right now.

i dunno why i keep thinking about it either... cant help myself..maybe coz hte reality of it has hit me..when weiwei starts shopping for winter wear and making plans for france and i start thinking of that same time period...except..i'l be in school... stuck in special project..... stuck with super sucky timetable...and... horrible projects and project group mates... (hopefully not but oh wells.. past experience has taught me nvr to be too hopefull)..

and now..i cant stop them from flowing...i dunno why either....i cant stop thinking about it..WHY... HATE IT...HATE myself for feelign this way.just get it into ur head ur not going thats it.its final. no more hoping.

hope this feeling doestn last... hope it goes away really quick and doesnt come back.

another hting thats been worrying me... (i seem to be full of worries rite..dunno why lah..HAIZ)..is wat i;m gonna do after poly. which is very fast approaching. i want to go U... local U preferably..but.. dunno do wat course and i dun like the idea of going in alone..not knowing anyone...i know that u can make friends in htere...but its different.. i guess wat i'm trying to say is i feel that i'm growing up too fast.. or that poly life is too short. its just like yesterday that i entered year 1 and now..theres only one sem left. i still want this way of life to continue... idun want it to change so fast..... i hate change...i hate the unknown... i hate standing at crossroads in my life and having to make a decision.

am i too reliant on other ppl?... i suppose i am...

feel better now. have let most of the depressing stuffs out... now just feel bored and sick of ipp.

somethings wrong with me... its like every friday i cant wait for the weekend to come.. and when its friday night.. i'm so happy coz it means two days of no work for me ... but when saturday comes... i feel so ... depressed?...stressed?..notreally stressed..just bored and sad ... coz so far i havent had any plans for my weekends and most of hte time i just laze around at home ..blog..watch tv... and mope... why?...i have no idea... past 2 weeks..i've been moping and stressing about work..but now ...i dont feel so stressed about work already...right now...all thats been on my mind ..is the stupid france trip... i feel so stupid... why do i keep thinking about it..its only making me upset... its making my eyes tear up right now.

i dunno why i keep thinking about it either... cant help myself..maybe coz hte reality of it has hit me..when weiwei starts shopping for winter wear and making plans for france and i start thinking of that same time period...except..i'l be in school... stuck in special project..... stuck with super sucky timetable...and... horrible projects and project group mates... (hopefully not but oh wells.. past experience has taught me nvr to be too hopefull)..

and now..i cant stop them from flowing...i dunno why either....i cant stop thinking about it..WHY... HATE IT...HATE myself for feelign this way.just get it into ur head ur not going thats it.its final. no more hoping.

hope this feeling doestn last... hope it goes away really quick and doesnt come back.

another hting thats been worrying me... (i seem to be full of worries rite..dunno why lah..HAIZ)..is wat i;m gonna do after poly. which is very fast approaching. i want to go U... local U preferably..but.. dunno do wat course and i dun like the idea of going in alone..not knowing anyone...i know that u can make friends in htere...but its different.. i guess wat i'm trying to say is i feel that i'm growing up too fast.. or that poly life is too short. its just like yesterday that i entered year 1 and now..theres only one sem left. i still want this way of life to continue... idun want it to change so fast..... i hate change...i hate the unknown... i hate standing at crossroads in my life and having to make a decision.

am i too reliant on other ppl?... i suppose i am...

feel better now. have let most of the depressing stuffs out... now just feel bored and sick of ipp.